On September 30th, I went to the Windsor Regional Hospital (Hotel Dieu) because I had suicidal tendencies, and I've had them for quite a while. On this particular day, I just couldn't handle anything at all. I was really frustrated with everything and I wanted to end it so bad; I was already planning how to do it. But then I remembered I promised my mother a year ago that I will always think about her when my depression gets the best of me, and henceforth decided to go to the hospital instead.

I got there in tears, but still went to talk to the nurse at where you register and show your healthcard. I told her I was going to commit suicide and she said "are you depressed?". I told her "very". She told me to sit down. I waited for 30 minutes, and no one called me in. So I left.

I walked towards downtown where an older gentleman saw me crying and he said things to comfort me. His kindness calmed me down and I managed to get back home without doing anything.

To the nurse at Windsor Regional Hospital around 9:30pm on September 30th, my case could've turned out a lot differently. If anyone goes to the hospital seeking help in regards to suicide, DON'T tell them to wait. That is the worst thing you could ever do. I'm posting this because there are people out there who may not have anyone to talk to, or comfort them at such times and will give up instantly

And to anyone who comments "suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem": you never know how hard it is when you're in the situation. Don't be a know-it-all.